He has been asking me out for a long time without me agreeing to it.Every time he did I would come up with a different excuse; either I have other engagements,I’m not feeling well,I’ll be working late,I’m going out with my friends,I’m baby sitting among other lies(Lord forgive me).
It’s not like I didn’t want to go out with him,it’s just that I still wasn’t sure if I should or shouldn’t go out with him or anyone just yet.Ever since I became a mum going out has been out of the question for me; sometimes I would prefer just to sit at home and watch my daughter play around the house.Even meeting some of my friends has been a problem (even some of my cousin’s complain that I don’t visit them which is true by the way for some I don’t even know where they live!).
This doesn’t mean I am not an outgoing person (if you doubt this ask anyone who knew me before I became a mum). I’m both an outdoor person as well as an indoor person (weird right,but that’s just me)I love nature;can take long lonely walks in the park,or take along a book with me to read.I can stay an entire day or even more indoors without even watching television or listening to music.I know you’re wondering how does one just sit not watching TV or listening to music well,I can either decide to clean the house and by cleaning I mean thorough cleaning,cook(it’s not like I love cooking but when I do I surely enjoy it and I cook a really nice meal and I can as well decide to just sit there!Does it sound creepy?Not really it doesn’t.I treasure solitude so if anyone tells me they need space I totally understand it.I hope my Mr A too understands that it’s not like I don’t want to go out with him but I just want to be alone,enjoy my own space,my own company and listen to my own thoughts. I know I’m not the only one who does this.
We all at times crave for that solitude,not because you don’t have anyone to talk to or hangout with but because you just want to be with yourself.It is totally understandable.Let no one call you mean or selfish.
So finally my Mr.A calls again;
“Hey gorgeous,are you free this coming weekend?”
(Rolls eyes)holy Moses,so he has not given up yet.
“Hey you,”im quickly thinking of fixing myself an event that I’m supposed to attend.Then a sudden thought of a statement one of my friends keeps telling me ‘you claim you’re single yet you never go out,do you expect Mr.Right to fall at your doorstep?’ crosses my mind.Lisa I still love you girl(giggles).
“Not really,what do you have in mind?”
Did I hear him just smile over the phone or I heard my own things…any way it is well.
“You told me you love soul music right, there’s a joint along Ngong Road that I know of we can go listen to some soul.”
Ooh my God,did he mean Art & Soul?I have only but heard of this place.
“Yes I do love soul music.Yeah I would love to go.” I almost heard him say finally she accepted!!
It doesn’t hurt going out with him, furthermore I have been standing this son of a woman for God knows how long.
“So we have a date right?”
“Perfect” and he hanged up.I could imagine the joy he felt.
So how do I go out leaving my daughter?,what do I wear?,how will it feel going out and I am someone’s mother?Do I wear high heels,wedges or flat shoes?what amount of make-up do I need to put on?How am I supposed to behave Infront of him? I didn’t know what question to deal with fast! It’s been ages(3 years since I last went out on a date!)it’s like I had forgotten everything.Do even dates have Dos and Don’ts? I’m yet to find out.
It’s Friday,the date night.I asked my Sister to baby sit for me and she agreed.fyukks!what a relief,I won’t have to worry about her(my daughter) because she is in good hands.Im the kind of person whom when you agree on going somewhere with kindly call me or text me in the morning of the material day or the night before just confirming that we’re actually going where we were supposed to go;not because I will forget but it shows commitment.(that’s just me I don’t know about everybody else).
My Mr.A must have been taught well by his mum(God bless his mother for me)He called me earlier that morning….
“Good morning sunshine”Does he have to be this sweet and nice every time he talks to me?.
“Good morning to you.” Did I miss anything?I hope not.
“Just calling you to wish you a great day ahead and also to remind you of our meeting later today.”
Lord,see the kind of a man your daughter has been praying for,are you answering her prayers or should she keep waiting as she prays more?.
“That’s so sweet of you,thanks for the reminder.Have a good day ahead as well.”
“See you then.”
That day was one of my most productive days at work!I don’t know how but I just know it was.Though I’m yet to confirm with my boss when she sends the performance report.
That evening after work I rushed back home to freshen up.I had to look good at least for once.I had to make sure my hair, makeup,dress were all in check.
As I was about to leave the house,I get a strange call;
“Habari yako madam,Mimi ni Uber nimetumwa na Jacob nikuchukue.Uko wapi’?(Hello madam,I’m your Uber I have been sent by Jacob to pick you up.Where are you?)
Dear God,I think he is being extra now,no one has ever sent me an Uber to pick me up!Why is this guy trying to show off?!
“Salama sana,hata nishakua tayari natoka sasa hivi.Uko side gani?”(Hello to you,I’m almost ready and I’ll be out in a minute.Where are you exactly?”
“Niko hapa Kwa gate yenu.”(I’m here at the gate)
So,even the Uber guy knows where I live!I’m not surprised!
I step out of the house trying so hard to balance in my high heels that I haven’t worn in a while.I spot a Honda Fit outside the gate,I call the number again just to be sure it’s him.Before I step into the car,my phone rings:it’s Jacob ofcourse…..!
“Hey beautiful,i sent an Uber to pick you up,has he arrived yet?He should be there by now.”
“Yes,it’s a Honda fit white in colour with car registration number…..”
Just hold it right there,so like you had to send an Uber?how about you just send me that money and let me find my way to Ngong Road? Anyway he is here already.
“You didn’t have to go through all that,I mean I can find my way.”
“I know you’re just from work and you’re tired so I didn’t want you to go through all the hustle of boarding a matatu to Ngong Road!”
Father,where have you been hiding him all these while?or was I the one who was taking too long to agree on the prayers that you had answered long time ago?
“Thank you so much for being so considerate,the Uber guy is here already and we should be there in the next 45 minutes if at all there’s no traffic.”
“Anything for a beautiful and strong woman like you”
Wait,how did you even come to know that I’m strong?have you ever seen me lift a 20liters can before?or you saw me tilling an a quarter acre land alone?!!!
The venue was exactly what I expected it to be.The ambiance was breathtaking and the music…..it’s like he had talked to the DJ and asked him to play all my favourite songs from the likes of George Benson, Marvin Gaye,Luther Vandros,Black Box etc ; because the track line up was amazing.
Jacob kept staring at me the whole entire time.He couldn’t get enough of me!
Ofcourse I couldn’t resist dancing with him.His arms felt so warm,the most secure and safest place I have ever been in this world!The sound of his heart beat,the warmth of his breathe whenever he whispered into my ears.There is something with his eyes,the way he looked at me no other man has ever looked at me like that before!
Back at home that night,I couldn’t sleep,my mind kept wondering off back to the street when we decided to take a walk in the streets of Nairobi to marvel at its beauty under the sky full of the moon and stars;the way he was holding my hand tightly never wanting to let it go,each time he would stop just to stare at me, without saying a word was it because I am beautiful?was it because he was in love with me,was it because he sees something in me that all the others failed to see?
“Stop being silly”,I told myself.They all start like this.
“NO,Jacob seems different” I’m still convinced that he is different from all the others…….